| Friends Only Biatches |
[30 Aug 2003|01:48am] |
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Yep, your eyes aren't playing tricks on you Christina Aguilera is REALLY a lesbian my journal is friends only. Want to know my secrets and my deepest thoughts? Asked to be added. Credit goes to Mar for the kick ass sign.
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[17 Aug 2003|03:40am] |
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" Here without you" - 3 Doors down |
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This song made me realize I miss my ex even more.
A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me
The miles just keep rolling as the people either way to say hello
I hear this life is overrated but I hope it gets better as we go
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done
it get hard but it won’t take away my love
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
but tonight girl it’s only you and me
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| Auditions |
[17 Aug 2003|03:12am] |
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"Here without you" - 3 Doors Down |
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Okay, yeah after I read Heather's entry about her audition for AI my heart sank. She most definitely deserved to make it to the next round. And I'm not just saying that because she's my friend well okay yes I am since I forgot what she sounds like. And now just after reading that I'm shitting in my pants worrying about how my audition on the 25th is going to go in NYC. At first I wasnt worried at all because I have nothing to lose but now after reading Heather's thing. I don't want to come home crushed. I want to go in there with a winning spirit expecting the worst. But how does one do that? I'm a big boy. A crushed ego won't do a lot of damage. My biggest fear is that I won't step up and represent my true voice that's all.
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| Rollin' Wit The- oof ..powers out |
[17 Aug 2003|02:44am] |
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Haven't been that active around the Internet since the week I'm in NYC the power goes out in half the state. Just my luck right? Fucking power grids are haunting me. Which one is falling over a stage which is over loaded and makes 50.1 million people lose electricity. And dontcha know that the days that Brooklyn didn't have electricity it was a high of 92 and a low of 85?
Enough of that drama. I have to get my girlfriend back because I'm lonely. However, Kate cheered me up the other day. She opened up to me in a very big way. I'm just glad she trusts me enough to tell me something that means so much to her. It felt really good. I felt worth something. So thank you for that. Mar, you have the patience of a saint. You really did cool me down last night. I hope everything works out for your stupid cousin
I was driving my uncles car around milbasin and I had the radio on and I discovered a new song by Simple Plan. It's called "Perfect." I'm not a fan of Simple Plan but God the melody is beautiful and the lyrics are great. Especially the whole "support" issue with the Dad. That really hits home. The lead singer's voice isn't as annoying as it usually is. Even though they stole the melody from a typical "Creed" song during the bridge it's still awesome as all hell.
My concert is in three days. I got my fubu outfit set. Whew-fuckin'hoo.
"Rollin' Wit The Hoommiieees"
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| Can I get a hell yeaaauh? |
[14 Aug 2003|02:30pm] |
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Making the band 2 |
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Wow, this week has been a whirlwind. I arrived in the JFK airport on Saturday afternoon anxious for my show only to find out that night that a grid holding lights fell and dented the stage in Atlantic City. Fine, I thought no biggie, I still have four days until my concert. They can build it up. Then the next day there was rumors flyin' around. MTV said the whole tour had been canceled. I immediately called continental and they said it was still on. Then, more sources started saying the same shit MTV was saying. I called continental once again and they said that it was still on but maybe they were making a decision so they told me to call back in 20 minutes.
I called back in 20 minutes and they told me it was postponed and to hold onto my tickets because the show will be rescheduled they just didn't know when. I was seriously crushed. I was hearing they were going to reschedule for the first week in September which seriously sucked ass because my American Idol auditions are on the 25th of August and I have to leave NYC if I don't make it on the 26th because school in NC for me starts on the 25th and I already postponed it. Even if I would have flew back in time for school and came back for the concert I wouldn't have had any money to come back. Then I thought maybe I should just stay here until the concert. But then I realized I would be missing a shitload of school and my mom wouldn't have stood for that.
Then there was my ex g/f who I was desperately trying to get back and impress with this concert. But since it was postponed that wasn't happening but then a silver lining came. The dark clouds were no longer over my head, a ton of weight was lifted off of my shoulders late last night when I logged into Christina's official site-My date had been rescheduled for the 20th. This works out PERFECTLY with my schedule! And you never know maybe I'll get my girl back.
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[05 Aug 2003|12:58am] |
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Chase is the #542 most common male name. 0.016% of men in the US are named Chase. Around 19600 US men are named Chase! source namestatistics.com
Jackson is the #615 most common male name. 0.012% of men in the US are named Jackson. Around 14700 US men are named Jackson! source namestatistics.com
Jackson is the #13 most common last name. 0.31% of last names in the US are Jackson. Around 775000 US last names are Jackson! source namestatistics.com |
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| "Crazy Klepto" |
[03 Aug 2003|11:51pm] |
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Lyrics: by me
Sung to the Tune of : "Crazy in Love"
Say Wha?! she be so klepto right now!
Most incredibly, she's an actress...R
It's the scissors, girl
[Bridge - Beyonce]
You ready
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, Winona
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, Winona
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, Winona
Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, Winona
[Jay-Z]
It's history in the making
2001, Starring Klepto Ryder.. ya heard?
[Verse 1 - Beyonce]
I look and stare at your big silly hat
purple on you is much too obvious
When you leave I'm begging you not to go
Call your name two or three times in a row
Had to stop you right in your tracks cause Saks fifth doesn't deal with phoney rats
Tags are cut and your newest research for a role is one to blame
And ya think I just don't understand
Just how your bag is filled with all the rags
[Chorus - Beyonce]
You sure as hell lookin' crazy right now
Your pills got ya lookin' so crazy right now
Ya drugs got ya lookin' so crazy right now
Oxycodone got ya lookin' so crazy right now (Your Oxy)
Got me hoping you'll just pay for the stuff now
Your bills gonna rank of 6 thousand dollars
Ya lookin' crazy Winona
Got ya lookin, got ya lookin' like a crazy klepto.
[Bridge - Beyonce]
[Verse 2 - Beyonce]
When the jury talked to the judge so quietly
"Who she think he is?" some kinda celebrity
gucci gown, she didn't even buy that dress
court date came to the jury in her best dress
It's that ya denyin three felonies
it's the way that my heart just feels bad for you
cause when I was a kid I grew watchin' beetlejuice
Doesn't matter if your hand doesn't fit the glove cause
Cause these people can smell your phoney bluff
[Chorus (with variations) - Beyonce]
[Beyonce]
Watch out shes lookin' like a crazy klepto
Got her lookin' got her lookin like a klepto
[Verse 3 - Jay-Z (Beyonce)]
Check it, let's go
Young Winnie, y'all know when she went loco
December 12th research for a r-o-l-e uh oh (Oh)
20 items missin', from the one and only (Oh no)
Sticky fingers, but her pockets are filled up like Trump (oh no)
The people screamin Free Winona with their signs with the windows up
She makes faces for the jury's sympathy
The face aint genuine though cause she still stole the clothes
She acts like it's all false though, If anything she's a good actress yo
A star like Ringo, stole like a sticky banditt
Klepto, brings her whole set (agent and her baguettes)
This Girl Interrupted no body can contain, crazy and deranged
They can't figure hey out, it's like when did she go insane? (Oh no)
Yes sir she stole the expensive cloth
My texture is the best fur, prada.
[Bridge begins repeating in
background]
She's been spillin her confessions like al rocher lost weight
How you think she got the leaf clovers
"It's for a role of course, uh move over!"
Fall back Ryder, ever since played interrupted and now she's really corrupted
And now she's busted on three charges the games done , trials over
[Verse 4 - Beyonce]
Got her looking, so crazy her scissors (but not edwards)
She's not herself lately She's foolish, She don't usually do this
IShe's been stealing all by herself, and baby she don't care
Cause her kelpto's got the best of her
And baby it's making a fool of the girl
She's poppin' pills and she don't care who sees
Cause baby klepto got her, pills got her, so crazy baby
"HEY COME BACK WITH THAT!"
[Chorus x2 (with variations) - Beyonce]
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| Fill this Motha out |
[03 Aug 2003|09:07pm] |
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"The boys of the summer" - The Ataris |
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Am I?
1. Am I cute?
2. Am I crazy?
3. Am I lovable?
4. Am I funny?
5. Am I annoying?
6. Am I psycho?
7. Am I daring?
8. Am I a good person?
Would You
1. Hug Me?
2. Miss me if I was gone?
3. Listen to my problems?
4. Hug me if I cried?
5. Be a good friend?
6. Get in a fight for me?
7. Run evil social espionage missions for me?
Would you ever
1. Go out with me?
2. If you already have, would you do it again?
3. Kiss me?
4. Marry me if you could?
5. Ever talk bad about me if we ever broke up?
6. Make out with me in a cemetery?
7. Snuggle with me?
1. How Well Do You Know Me?
2. When's my birthday?
5. Who is my best friend?
6. Who am I crushing on(Sounds painful)/dating?
7. Favorite color?
9. Favorite Animal?
12. Favorite song/songs?
13. Favorite music groups?
15. What song would you dedicate to me?
18. What would I use to dispatch a horde of hungry zombies?
If You Could
1. Give me a new name, it would be?
2. Do one thing with me, it would be?
3. Drop me a piece of advice, it would be?
3. Kidnap me for a day, where would we go?
JUST A FEW QUESTIONS
1. What do you love about me?
2. What do you hate about me (seriously)?
3. What is my best quality?
4. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
5. What is your honest opinion about me?
6. What would you do if I sang out of tune?
1. what song (if any) reminds you of me?
2. Do I remind you of any characters on TV?
4. Have you ever had a dream about me?
5. Do you think I'm a virgin?
6. If you just met me how old would you guess I am?
7. Am I huggable?
8. If you could give me anything... what would it be?
9. If you could promise me anything.. what would it be?
Personal
1. Am I ugly, average, decent, good looking, beautiful, hot, etc?
2. Do you ever think about me offline?
3. If you could describe me in one word... what would that word be?
4. Do you/have you ever had a crush on me?
5. When we first met, what were your thoughts? (if you've met/talked to me?)
6. If you had to describe to someone who I am and what I am like, what would you tell them?
7. What are my faults?
8. My strengths?
Everybody
1. Do you wish we were closer?
2. State here your completely honest opinion of me:
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| Reviews |
[03 Aug 2003|12:43am] |
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Harder to Breathe - Maroon 5 |
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Today I went to see American Pie with five of my good friends. Awesome movie. Better than the other sequel. It's just too bad they put the nail in the coffin with this one. I strongly recommend everyone to get up off of their asses to see it. It's a great and funny movie. Light hearted at some parts but the rest and just great. Not as hard core with the sex jokes but still a great movie. Although this has got to be one of the most gross movies of the American Pie series. If you've seen the movie well then you know there's a whole 'nother "new" meaning to the name "shitbrick".
Yesterday I saw Gigili starring Jennifer Lopez and Ben Affleck. It was actually a very intellectual movie. I went in thinking it was going to be some teen fodder romance flick but it wasn't. In my opinion it was a good movie, good chemistry and good plot. I give it a B minus because J.LO didn't take her top off.
Tomorrow is my wannabe frat party that starts at 10 and ends at 5 because well...I have better things to do then to clean the house at 2 in the morning opposed to cleaning the house at 6 at night. It's gonna be fun.
Kim told me she had a crush on me the other day. I was really taken back by it and I felt really bad because I know she's lonely (like me) but I'm in love with someone else and I just really hate turning down people or "dismissing" them. I hope she didn't take it too personal.
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| Virtual Insanity |
[01 Aug 2003|11:16pm] |
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Virtual Insanity - Jamiroquai |
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I'm feeling pretty crappy today. I woke up, went to my job and a kid today at drivers ed almost crashed into another car. I had to take a hold of the wheel and slam on my breaks. Just something that you want to deal with in the morning but I have to take into consideration that the kid is learning and blah blah blah.
I'm pissed off/upset for various reasons. One being the whole saga with Gina. g/f who left me for F.I.T. to get a better education. Went out for a year and a half I find myself asleep in my bed asking what I did to deserve this? And then I question whether I'm selfish and should just let her do her thing. But then the thought of not turning her down and actually living in New York with her pops into my head. This thought pains me the most. I feel like I've failed her in a way. Not only her, I failed us, our relationship.
The second reason why I'm pissed off is because while we were together we planned a mini vacation to Boston this week. And well that obviously got cancelled. Not only that but a month after my aunts, uncles and my mom and siblings planned a trip to Florida knowing I had a trip with Gina. Now when my trip got cancelled they tried to get an extra ticket for me they left for Florida today but that didn't work so now I'm stuck for a week in an empty house. I'm throwing a party on Sunday but to tell you the truth I feel obligated to throw a party because I'm a 20-year-old guy alone in his house with beer. I just feel alone.
Third reason why I'm feeling shitty is because this week I've started back up on Ritalin because I go back to school on the 25th and I need to stay focused for school. I hate the medication. Like everything else in life it has it's pro's and con's but the con's way out the pro's. When I'm on the medication I just feel like I'm going through the motions of my days but it doesn't seem real. I'm too focused. I don't feel like my normal forgetful self, which is one of the pros. I don't forget anything and I score higher marks. But other than that I feel like a mess inside. I can't think creatively. I can't explore other realms. Everything is black or white. Nothing is in color-tinted shades.
Maybe my mood will change but I doubt it.
side note: Seal's new album comes out on 9/9 whewho!
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| How Sad is that? Funny but this review points out how horrible it was. |
[31 Jul 2003|09:06pm] |
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Review of Timberlakes segment. Now I'm not a fan of his but this is horrible.
SARS concert, Toronto
First, I had an incredible time. It was history, and I was there, about 40 feet from center stage. One of the best days/nights in my life, a memory to be treasured. It was a charity concert to help Toronto out and have a blast doing it. Both accomplished.
But this is a fandom journal, so I'll talk about Justin. You've all heard about the booing and flying bottles by now. But up close, seeing everything live? .
I came into the concert expecting the worst. Not only had I read (online) about plans to boo Justin Timberlake off stage, several acquaintances discussed their plans within earshot. So, very prepared.
I wormed my way to 40 feet from center stage, right beside the barricaded passway in the middle. I was in the West section. The sign that says "@#%$ JUSTIN" on one side and "TIMBERLAKE IS A @#%$" on the other was in my section, about 20 feet to my left front. Yes, the sign was that close to the stage. No way in hell could Justin have missed it.
Forget about Justin for a second. That particular slur really, really offended me as gay man living in the city that pushed gay marriage into being. The city that happened to be hosting the concert to help revive its economy. Oh, and Vatican had just declared war on gay marriage that morning. Marvelous.
At noon, the host Mike Bullard started announcing the performers' names. The mere mention of Justin Timberlake got incredible booing. People around me shouted out plans to boo him off and throw water bottles at him. One particular group had the charming idea of peeing in the bottles first (whether the idea was executed, I don't know). The only cheers related to Justin was when the "@#%$ JUSTIN" sign was held up for all to see.
Throughout the afternoon, booing started whenever Justin's name was mentioned... then it always turned to loud cheers and laughters when The Sign inevitably went up. Mike Bullard, who was a big hit with the crowd, asked us mid-afternoon to do him a favor and show Justin Timberlake some love as they did every other act. "The guy loves Canada! He's here to help!" Booed. The Sign went up again, which Mike saw and joked, "Come on! I can't read that out loud on national TV." More laughters.
It's worth mentioning that the crowd cheered for every single act except Justin, even the ones that few knew about and those whose music bored everyone. It's also worth mentioning that people talked about their hate for Justin as much as their love for the Stones and AC/DC. The Flaming Lips got an enthusiastic response; yet when they mentioned Justin, the loud cheers turned silent for two seconds. It was eerie. At least they weren't booed for their pro-Timberlake sins.
When the name "Justin Timberlake" flashed on the big screen, the booing in my section was. No words. Mike Bullard came out again and practically begged the crowd to be nice. "He's doing this for free. To help out." Man did Mike overestimate his own popularity. He was booed. The Sign was now 10 feet from center stage.
Justin's band came out and started playing. I spied Lynn; Trace was shirtless, a video camera in his hand. The booing continued, along with loud hateful chants. The keyboard intro went on forever. People started wondering that if Jusin had bailed. One guy behind me said, "I wonder if he realizes he's getting booed off the stage." A woman answered, "I don't think he's coming out at all."
Finally, he walked onto the stage, looking tense as hell. Booing, finger-flipping, The Sign, flying water bottles, you know the drill. Loud chants everywhere, but since I tuned homophobic slurs out, the only ones I heard were "@#%$ you" and "go home." Thousands of people in the front, united in hate. Except for a few cheers/claps from brave girls who sat on their friends' shoulders and people who didn't even like Justin but understood the concept of charity.
He knew they hated him. Some pep talk for Toronto and charity. Booed. "I'm here for the same reason you're: to see the motherfuckin' Stones. This'll be over before you know it."
CMAR. It was the HOB version. 20-30 plastic bottles were thrown at him during that song. Some empty, some not. Most missed by a mile, some came pretty close, and one bottle actually hit him on the chest. He tried to catch that one, and when he got hit there was a half-second of... confusion? Whatever. His singing cut out at least three times because he was dodging bottles. One bottle knocked down a mikestand for the drummer, who was right behind Justin most of the time and thus got almost as many bottles.
Mike Bullard came out on stage again to give Justin a pat on the shoulder and offer encouraging words. They talked briefly; Mike looked like he wanted to say something to the crowd but didn't. Justin carried on. He thanked Toronto for giving him a chance to help out.
Senorita. Justin played the keyboard. Fewer bottles were thrown, but one was a very nice shot that cut off his singing/playing mid-verse. The booing had settled down, but the "@#%$ you" and "go home" chants got louder. The pro-Timberlake girls above-crowd got back to the ground after getting hit by a few bottles. I heard some clapping... then I realized it was from my own hands. One guy commented, "man this guy SUCKS!"
I silently agreed that the performance did suck (an entire verse was flat, and some parts he practially mumbled) but argued that it wasn't Justin's fault at all. Bottles (and other things) were still flying in his face, though most dropped a few feet from the stage. People were still flipping him the bird. The hateful chants were so loud, there was no way he didn't hear. How was he supposed to maintain focus and energy amidst all that hostility?
Song over. He thanked Toronto again and appreciated the love. That was denial, seriously.
Rock Your Body. No trace of his usual enthusiasm and slick moves. I completely understood. There were at least 20 bottles (and a few other things) on the stage by then - only an idiot would've attempted any sort of dancing. He barely managed to sound alive, doing only one riff for the beatbox. He seemed tired and resigned.
He thanked the crowd again (denial) and walked off the stage. His backup singers clapped as hard as I did when he walked by them. That was a grade-D performance by Timberake standards, but the fact that he finished three full songs in that condition made me prouder of him than I had ever been. Trace stood up, filming the hateful crowd with a smirk on his face. I @#%$ loved all of them.
The drummer threw his sticks at the crowd. Hard. I saw his face - he hoped to hit random haters on the head.
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| This Just Ain't Right |
[31 Jul 2003|04:59pm] |
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The RIAA (Recording Industry Association Of America) announced a few days
ago that anyone found using Kazaa, Kazaa lite, Morpheus, WinMX or any other
p2p software will be subject to "legal action". They said that if your ID
is found logged in they will send a letter to your home stating that if a
law is passed saying that sharing files is illegal, you can face a fine of
250,000$. They also announced that they will be contacting ISP's such as
AOL, CompuServe, Verizon, RCN ect..., to find out the names of the people
downloading music, pictures, movies, and even episodes from television.
What this means is that if you continue using p2p software you can be
expecting a friendly letter from the RIAA. If you want to find out if your
on their list click on the link below.
So far they have a list of names of people that will be fined. More people
are added to this list everyday so keep checking back if you want to know if
your name is on it.
You can check out the list here....
http://www.techtv.com/news/culture/story/0,24195,3484600,00.html
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| Different Standards |
[30 Jul 2003|11:14pm] |
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After work, today I hung out with Angelo and Gavin and drove around looking for "hunnies". Well, at least that's what they were doing. I just wanted to listen to some music on the radio. We got home about 8ish and played poker. I lost all my money. I guess my head just wasn't in the game. My head doesn't seem to be anywhere these days. Can someone or something help me find it? Maybe I should wear a sign that says "Lost Mind Caused By A Broken Heart".
This morning I had to take my doggie to get his teeth cleaned. He had to get knocked out. I brought him home and he was a mush. He's still a little mushy. He was crying as soon as I came back home. I felt bad but his breath just stanked. It just wasn't right.
Over the game of cards my buddies and I had an interesting conversation about interracial relationships and marriage. It kind of went both ways. Some of us agreed with it some people disagreed. Me, I could care less. I mean I'm half Spanish. Sure, it doesn't make me black but it doesn't make me full white either. I wouldn't have a problem if my daughter brought back a black man or a white man. As long, as he's nice and treats her right.
Tomorrow I'm probably going to chill out in my pool, who knows.
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| I'm here at last |
[30 Jul 2003|01:05am] |
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"Changes" -Tu Pac |
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-waves frantically-
so I've finally gotten a journal. Yes, go me. I was pushed along by various people like Marina, Kim -pauses, stops-...Marina...Kim..to get a journal and divulge my deepest darkest secrets.
For those of you who don't know me my name is Chase and I'm from North Cacalackie. Hope ya'll enjoy invading my privacy reading my journal.
Pimp time: I co own a icon journal with kimmy.. to see it go here
I wish mandy would stop sippin' on some haterade. You think she'd be nicer to my future wife Christina Aguilera.. and no she aint gettin' crabs!
Today I saw spy kids with my sister , brother and my friend Ang. It was truly a trip on drugs without the natural high.
-sighs- I miss Gina, should I call her? That is the question
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